Because I’d lived a life so full of negativity, it’s been extremely difficult to change to one of positivity. I’d had brief moments of positivity, but for the most part, 99.9% of my life was negative. I couldn’t try to think positively because it was like trying to a build a castle on quick sand – negativity would just consume it!
It’s bloody draining just thinking about how much of a drag I used to be! A black hole of negativity that could suck the joy out of anything *sook*
What’s helped me change this mindset has been to clean my mind. Clear it out. Get rid of the shit. Discard it. Abandon it. Let it go. I turned that black hole of negativity into a black hole for the negativity. This was all done through meditation #trending
Since then, my life has really changed. I’ve done a complete 180 flip. But there’s still remnants of that old mind lingering around like a bad smell…. But they’re like clouds, and I am the sky. Before I was in the clouds, and changed with their every fluctuation.
In the past, when I’ve practiced gratitude and lived from that energy, there has been “miracles” and “coincidences” and “synchronicities” just exploding in my life. But it had to be truthful and sincere, and not with any expectation of anything in return.
“Come on Universe, gimme, gimme, gimme – uh, uh, I mean Thaaaaank you”
So now it’s about cementing that 180 change. So I thought about how to do this…. And it seems that gratitude may be the key according to all the research I’ve done. So I’ve decided I’m committing to do a 100 day gratitude challenge!
Can that become a permanant state of being, or is it something that only comes and goes like waves? So I suppose, this is a blog of personal accountability. I learnt once that being accountable to a group is a powerful motivator – well, now I’m being accountable to the whole world!
I want to see how I can change, where I can change, and what I need to do to change. I got too many things I want to do, but none of them can be done by my past, old, shitty self. So it’s time to change. It's time to put this to the test and see if my life can continue to transform.
If you want to follow that journey, you can check out my Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/p/CkCwpIwpxL0/
If you read this, then thank you <3 <3 <3