Today I'm grateful for my mind being opened to just accepting myself for where I am. Flaws and all. I can only do as good as my past dictates. Change is a gradual process. It's not just 0 -> 10 over night. Has to go through 1, then, then 3, 4, 5, 6, then 7, 8, 9 and then finally to 10. Step by step.
What I'm amazed by is the astounding energy I had today. I was feeling extremely lethargic with the lunch I had (it was a burger nom nom nom) but fuck it, not fighting it. But I felt it in my body. That chicken. The pain and suffering of the chicken, it's like I consumed that.... That's how I felt.
But? I got up. And I moved. I did what I needed to do no matter what. No matter how I felt. That's the promise I made!
What am I grateful for today?
I felt more gratitude for the fact I'm actually even capable of doing that.
Then I felt grateful for the fact I can even switch what I want to eat half way through the day. Normally if I start with junk, I end with junk, but I had the complete opposite for dinner (self balancing food which is a vegetable and grain powdered food).
I felt gratitude for YouTube and having access to all these amazing and inspiring minds.
I felt gratitude for the future I'm striving for and how these amazing people are inspiring me at the right times.
I tell you this - my past I was a quitter. I gave up easily. But I'm someone who just pushes through now no matter what! 7 years I've been pushing through these minds, and it's been a difficult road, I won't lie. But they say it's more difficult for a camel to pass through the eye of a needle than for one to enter into Heaven. And when I see people who quit and how quickly they give up, I feel grateful that I was blessed with the insight to see and know and keep pushing, despite the heaviness of my negative mind.
This is so entrepreneurial. You know what? I'm trying to spread a unique meditation method throughout this entire city of Brisbane. I'm trying to build it up from the ground up. I am supported, it's not a solo endeavour, and I have the Universe on my side, but just to be able to stay and not give up is a tremendous feat. I just move, act, and leave the rest to the Universe. But I keep imagining that future where it's achieved, and how much love and gratitude I will have for having done that.
But it won't end there. It won't end until I've expelled every ounce of energy to the cause of helping all people across the country and across the world. I won't stop. I won't give up. Not now, not ever.
Not till I die.
I always knew that was how it was going to be. But today I declared it.
And I feel grateful. My 3rd eye feels intensely open. And my body feels light as a feather.
The expectation of every day being like this is fading. And that can only be postive.