From Sorrow to Hope: Love, Enlightenment, God (Mother and Father), Destiny and Truth

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I've always been highly sensitive and intuitive, and I was never comfortable in social situations... I was always the outcast and was therefore filled with sorrow.

I used to think there was something wrong with me, but now I realise it's just me, as I am - as the Universe made me and that this is my journey to hope.

An Endlessly Dark Mind...

By the time I turned 20, my mind was an endlessly dark cloud, and all I saw in the world was pain, suffering, and misery.

I watched corporate power ravage people and the planet for it's own self centred greed, leaving heart ache and destruction in their wake, with little to no care for anyone or anything outside of profit.

I was so tortured by this...

Starving children, dying of thirst and malnutrition, humans living in squalor, the planet being raped and pillaged, while people lived in mansions with enough rooms to house whole neighbourhoods of people.

Most of the time, I saw that these people didn't really do a level of work deserving of that type of wealth - not when I watched father's spend days and nights digging through waste just to find scraps in order to feed their families.

I was so endlessly tortured by this...

A Self Centred World And An Awakening

But my cries went unheard. Not many people seemed to care. I could see that all the things I seemed to care about, nobody else did. Everyone only seemed concerned with themselves and their families.

And I don't blame them - it's not like I was a saint. I was more self centred than anyone I knew, it was just expressed differently in me.

Back then, it only turned my heart even darker as I began to resent everyone and everything around me - and the darker I became, the darker the world was in return to me.

It wasn't until my mid 20's, where one fateful night, while publicly denouncing and deconstructing the falsified order of Australian society, that I had an awakening.

Life Was Never The Same

My whole life changed in that moment and it's never been the same... God was revealed to me - God, the Universe, is our Mother and Father and they showed me their great, infinite and endless love.

I met with Christ, and came to know all the ways of the world, and realised that all the religions were talking of exactly the same existence - our Mother and Father - but they all used different words.

This realisation is what people called enlightenment, something I'd previously known nothing about.

I remember running into my younger brother's room, exploding with ecstasy, but he couldn't "hear" me. But I know my sincerity touched his true self - the God within him - because I'll never forget the tears I saw welling up in his eyes as his brain failed to comprehend what I was saying, but his heart knew.

Had Mother and Father not revealed themselves to me, I am convinced by now I'd have killed myself. I just couldn't deal with being alive for much longer with all that sorrow.

Blessing And A Curse

Despite the fact the ecstasy and bliss had slipped away from me (and I never wanted to say I was enlightened), I now knew there was more to life than what my 5 senses created.

It was at once a blessing and a curse. The sorrow of losing Mother and Father is indescribable - it is absolutely the worst feeling I have ever experienced in my life.

I searched high and low in books, on YouTube, through people, and in any way I could just to find them again.

One day, I stumbled upon a meditation method which showed me how to eliminate the false self so that only God remained - and I knew instantly that this was The Way and my destiny.

A Life of Devotion

Since then, I have devoted myself, to the best of my ability, to the meditation and therefore to humanity and to sharing that love.

Along the way, I've witnessed many people across all walks of life talk as though they were enlightened - that they were awake, that they'd "escaped the matrix", that they knew flow, that they understood energy or were spiritual.

But I found that for many of them, their actions did not match their words and the depths of their enlightenments seemed shallow to me. I have been desperate to try and share with them that they still had a way to go and that eliminating the false self would bring them closer to the words they spoke about.

But most have become imprisoned in their own delusional awakenings. I can't begin to describe to you the depths of my frustration at this.

But I know that should this be The Way, should God truly be working through me, that all those people too will have their day as they walk on the path created for them by Mother and Father's Great Love.

Isn't this what is meant by salvation? But people don't know this, even though they've waited for 1,000's of years. They simply cannot see from within their minds...

An Ordinary Person

These days I have found myself - an incredibly ordinary person - at an unfolding destiny that overwhelms my every step. Not even those who say they know God are on my side, because the god they think they know is a god of their mind and they are therefore blind to what God is trying to show them.

But I have come with the spirit of the Apostle's who walked with Christ, and I am unashamedly proud of that. It was a destiny I shied away from, crippled by my own wretchedness, but I am learning to embrace it and am becoming ever emboldened by it because no matter how much I try to escape it, Mother and Father always nudge me back on that path.

Despite my profound ordinariness, I have come to love myself in a way I never thought possible.

I appreciate myself for all my flaws, and I'm grateful for this meditation method which has made me diligent and talented according to my wildest dreams.

I am humbly attending to my duties running a meditation centre, whilst at the same time trying to give birth to the new financial system that is required in this new world of coexistence, along with also keeping up with my architectural practices which will be necessary for the building of this new world and it's accompanying systems and structures. .

The Way of Truth

Because I know Mother and Father are with me, because I know that my steps are paved with light, I know there is nothing to fear. But as I walk, I must continue to shed all this darkness of my old self, and this writing is my ode to that.

Not only must I shed my own darkness, I have to fight against the darkness of the world, for the sake of the world. For True Love.

The people who've taken control of every part of human society and corrupted it to its core in servitude of the false self - the false idol - the false god - the demon - satan - are now closing in on our final chance to escape from it.

But they cannot win and nor will they ever.

Because falseness can not defeat Truth.

It can not.

It is logically impossible.

They have already lost, but are stubbornly fighting, kicking and screaming, refusing to yield to the One True Love of God lost in their greed and lust for power - and for this they will come to hang their heads in tremendous shame in the future. This is the destiny they have made for themselves.

But for sure, even those people must be saved, for this is what True Love is.

From Sorrow to Hope

Tears have flowed through every word as I have poured my soul out onto this page.

There seems to be nothing more sorrowful these days than feeling so very alone, and yet so profoundly connected...

Despite all of this, there is truly nothing to do but continue to silently and faithfully move forward - no matter the obstacles, and no matter the depth of my sorrow and loneliness.

Now it's time to wipe away the tears and put a smile on my face.

My heart beams at the thought of a beautiful young boy I helped tonight to meditate, so that he too, can find Mother and Father - God - within him.

He is excited by his changes, and in his purity and the tenderness of his spirit, I see that same love I found all those years ago in Mother and Father.

In this way, one by one all the people of the world will be saved.

And it gives me hope.